So, I’ll start my new 2010 postings with a little update of my life that is more in detail:
In September of 2008, I moved into my very own apartment in Detroit. It was awesome, and I absolutely loved the place (besides the bugs, but hey – when you live in the city, that’s what you get. ) I met some fabulous people who lived in and around the building and had the best time living there. At the time I moved in there I was still dating my current boyfriend, Kyle, and I still am to this day. In September of 2009, I moved into Kyle’s house with him. Hid dad passed away in October 0f 2008, and he just recently purchased the house. We now live south of Detroit in the suburbs. I have to say that I absolutely LOVE the house, and I love living with the best man I know. Things are great. I will admit, though, that sometimes I miss my independence. I do still have it here though – so it’s basically the best of both worlds.
Kyle is the love of my life! It’s been about two years that we have been together now, and I couldn’t be happier with him. We have had our ups and downs, but have come out strong. He is an amazing man and he has been there for me through the darkest times of my life, as I have been there for him. I couldn’t ask for a better soul mate. As I mentioned in a previous post when Kyle and I first got back together, he was my first love – my high school sweetheart – the one boy who ever really and truly broke my heart. When you’re 16 and madly in love with a boy, it’s hard to ever forget him or let him go. And here we are six years later, together and loving each other more than anything in the world! It’s so funny how things work out.
I first started this blog to vent my feelings and experiences during my trivial time of dating an American soldier, which was of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my young life. I still speak with him – he is my friend, and he is well. I am glad, however, that I did start this blog, as it is so very interesting to look back at what I have written and actually see my own personal growth through my words and experiences.
I just graduated from a university in Detroit, and I am looking for a job. College was an amazing experience, and to be honest, I can’t believe it’s already over! It honestly flew right by. Everyone always says it will, but you never believe it until it’s over before you are ready for it to be over. My degree is in public relations, and I have to say I love it. I wish I would have double majored in voice and PR, but hey, I can sing on my own time, which I still do. I have had some fabulous experiences in PR – interning at several great organizations and for the university’s theatre department. I cannot wait to get a job that I will love, and although that may take a while with this depressing economy, I will do what it takes until I get it!
I am still singing in the cover band and it has been one heck of an experience for me. Singing in a band is completely different than anything I’ve ever done, and I have learned SO much. The musicians in my band are beyond amazing! Great people and unbelievably talented. One of my best friends even ended up dating the lead male singer/keyboardist in my band, and they are perfect together. Again – how funny the way things work out in life! I can only hope that one day I can do some original music as well as covers, just for the fun, experience, and my unbelievable need to express myself through music and lyrics!
As for my friends, I have the best friends a girl could ask for. You know how they always tell you that after high school ends, you never talk to the same people? That ended up as a lie for me, because I still hang out with some of my best friends from both middle school AND high school, and I love them all so much. I’d be nowhere without them! Of course I have met some of the most wonderful people in college, and I love them just as much. Family is good too – my Aunt and Grandma are the most amazing people and have been there for me no matter what, and I can honestly say that I wouldn’t have made it to be this successful in life without them! My little sister is a junior in high school now, and I can’t believe how much she’s grown up and how proud she makes me. I love her with all of my heart, and it is so comforting to know that she will be a part of my life forever. My family, Kyle, and my friends are the most important things to me and they are what makes my life complete!
I think I have given a detailed update of all the major things in my life to this point, so now I can go on about my day today.
Things have been utterly boring lately! I went from working a job, singing in the band, taking classes, and working an internship to doing almost NOTHING! Don’t get me wrong, I love and absolutely need my breaks, but now I am just beyond bored. I have got to find a job! I have had a ton of things go wrong lately, though, and it has been a hassle. I am now a victim of credit fraud, which is definitely NO fun. So much to deal with – police, banks, credit companys, etc. It irritates me! I bust my butt to make a measly dollar – and these people steal my information and just spend my money! Go get your own job and make your own money! Thieves make me so mad – everyone else works hard to support themselves and their family, and here you are stealing what I worked hard for. It’s just crap! So, I’ve been dealing with all that lately and a bunch of other responsibilities. Being an adult is never fun. You know, it’s funny how when you’re young you want to grow up so fast, but when you’re older, you want to be young again! How funny that we always wish for what we aren’t or what we don’t have, and when we have it, we want to go back!
Since I have no job and nothing to do, I’ve been cleaning the house a lot and doing whatever I can to keep busy. Being stressed out means not sleeping well, which hasn’t been fun either. The best thing that has happened this new year is that Kyle and I have decided to go on a diet and eat healthier, and we have really been sticking to it! I am starting to enjoy cooking (and I used to be the WORST cook in the world) and eating things that are healthy – and it’s fun to control urges to eat so crappy. My one goal is to map out the career path I want and find a job that will take me there. I am going to be positive and make this my year to get everything on track! It is nice to have time again and be able to do things I actually enjoy and start to make things go MY way.
I think I have rambled enough for the night, so I will leave you with these song lyrics (Bomshel – Fight Like a Girl) that both inspire me and make me cry all at once:
“Hold your head high.
Don’t ever let them define
The light in your eyes.
Love yourself, give them hell
You can take on this world
You just stand and be strong
And then fight
Like a girl.”